09-26-2011, 10:52 AM
Spoiler:
How odd, the mother thought, to have a home again.
It wasn’t that she had been without a house before today. She had a fine abode, furnished and staffed to fulfill whatever needs she may have. And it was not that it was without personal touches; She consoled herself in dark moments with the knowledge that, through her efforts, every family conquest and memory was memorialized throughout the house in cracked paintings, musty animals and tarnished trinket.
Yet the house, until today, had been empty of any real substance. The only human touches \ had been her own and, through the efforts of the servants, even the imprints of her day’s bustle were scrubbed away or dusted into a bin.
The lady had caught the maid trying to clear away the half eaten cake and cups of the day’s party. She had sent her away with a bark and a scowl, casting the little scrubbing elf back to the kitchen with promises of tanning if she continued. The party, alone, would be hers to clean up.
It had been her daughter Grace’s eighteenth birthday today. It had been years since she had last seen her youngest. Those years, she suspected, had been somehow important to the girl. For the mother they were a snippet of time, consumed voraciously by appearances and parties and afternoons spent idling in the city. For the girl they were a hardening, a time when the softness of maternal need was chipped slowly away by war and independence. She was a woman now, strong and cold and distant.
To look upon Grace now made her wonder if the memories of tending to the child’s scrapes or mending her toys with new baubles were genuine or just fantasies.
Silently the woman began to shuffle away the platter of cake, the half-finished platter of confection to disappear in some dark recess.
Marian was the same as ever, the boy justas stubborn and hungry for maternal approval as he had been so many years before. Nothing had come upon him yet to harden away the softness. Perhaps it never would, she chided, and she would have her little boy until the day she died.
It was a warming thought.
The change in her children scared her. She had told them about the family’s plight and its sufferings. During the years the Shepfield name had been tarnished to the level of Bisen and, together, had brought the family low in the esteem of their peers. She had never noticed how shallow her life had been until the scorn had taken away her aristocratic pleasures.
In the year since their fall Marianna had tried to keep her darkening thoughts away from her children. It had been easy, after all, to hide away the growing hunger in her flowery letters and care packages. But, face to face with her children, the darkness had bled out.
“Toss this, Gella. Save only a slice for after supper.”
“Yes Mistress.”
The party had gone so well. Their godmother –and Marianna’s own friend- had attended. She had hoped the children would open to Jina’s old, familiar face and, in a way, they had. But there had been no childish squeals or half-lisped requests to touch the gruff woman’s blades. It was all neutered and polite conversation. There was no softness or familiarity between them. And that had, looking back, hurt in its own way.
The distance between her and her children had cut her deep. In her confusion she had slipped, her tongue spitting such venom that she had scared even the love-hungry son. She had screamed about hate and fear, feeding more towards parental bonds than any real center of logic and reason.
It had been a bitter failure. She had lost her daughter during the process, the woman withdrawing into a bland wall of dispassion. The daughter would work for her mother, that the woman new. But on that birthday the mother had fallen to suffer the punishment of being given only body, not mind or heart.
Marianna returned to the table and began to quiet stack the cups and forks. She was a mother in name only now. The children were lost to her, she feared. Yet there were other ways to win love. There were other ways to win affection and passion.
If family ties would not stir the languid to action then other means were required.
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