Roxas65 Wrote:True. The one thing you've failed to account for is how using shadow magic robs the user of her emotions. After prolonged use, your character will fail to recognize right from wrong and only see effective means for an end, effectively making the character "evil."
This is in fact something codified by Therai, who is going to train me IC. For one thing, it isn't exactly canon, and is from interpolating things into the lore that aren't explicitly mentioned. For another, I do in fact plan to factor it in, but Therai and I both agreed it won't be as significant because of several factors: For one, Antia has not been using Shadow anywhere near as long as her teacher; it took many, many years for the corruption to affect Therai. Additionally, Therai tells me OOC that she
deliberately suppresses her own emotions in addition to the effect channeling Shadow for so long has had on her.
I do plan on having it affect Antia, just not to the extent it affects Therai; her emotions will simply be muted, if you will. This doesn't mean she can't feel, or is in a state of complete apathy: think of it like the Flame and the Void from
The Wheel of Time, if somewhat more corrupted. If she is in Shadowform, this will be more pronounced.
My aversion to "lack of emotion" isn't out of a Mary Sue-ish "But I can't have any flaws!" complex, it's just that roleplaying a fully emotionless character would be both extremely boring, not at all conducive to character development as well as the playing out of personal weaknesses. Antia would be incapable of cowardice, of making snap decisions that she'll regret, and of in-character snarking--the latter of which is entirely unacceptable.
Do the Tranquil from Dragon Age ring a bell? Who wants to RP with one of those? Who wants to RP
as one of them? When it comes down to it, even logical decisions are based on emotionally-based goals and priorities: "I want to survive" is not logical; it is emotional. "I must stop the world from being destroyed and everyone in it" is emotional, not logical. The goals behind every single motivation are inherently based in emotion.
Also, why would a lack of emotion lead to being "evil?" Her muted emotions will make her less empathic, and less concerned about issues that sapients are instinctively inclined to avoid: for example, she would no doubt agree with Arthas' decision to raze Stratholme as a tragic necessity, because it would be best to kill the populace before they became threats to the uninfected. This is not evil; it is simply cold and impartial.
In the words of a certain Aussie: "Feelings?! Look, mate, you know who has a lot of feelings? Blokes what bludgeon their wife to death with a golf trophy. Professionals have
standards: Be polite. Be efficient. Have a plan to kill everyone you meet."