07-31-2010, 03:27 AM
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A painting of Saif commissioned during the third war, a symbol of his dedication as he rose to the rank of sergeant.
Saif Al-Essa. Journal Entry, Date Unknown, Y 33.
War created a scar which ran bone deep. Be it carved in the flesh of a man, or the soil of the land. As I gaze into the mirror the scars remind me of past feats and failures, a gruesome insignia worn for all to see. I remember father saying that the past is the torch which lights our way. If only the present where bathed in light as he had claimed.
You may ask yourself who I am, but before you judge me I dare you to gaze into the mirror in contemplation. Does the sight of yourself cause you to wince within, does it turn your stomach and send chills up your spine? do your kin shun you, and are they right in doing so?
People tend to forget those who protected them when the enemy stood upon humanities doorstep. The said metaphor of the past being a torch lighting our way succumbing to the darkness that is reality. The army molded me into a man, one who shed the blood of the enemy without asking, one who burnt and maimed at the utter of an order. I was once a believer in a greater power looking down upon our mortal souls, protecting the righteous as they charged the scourge in Tirisfal.
Are you familiar with the third war?
No, you could not grasp the hardship we endured.
As we where shipped over to Lordaeron I had grown hardened. Yet within each soldier there is a distinct fear, an anxiety which churns within as a battle beckons. Long did I and my brother suffer in the trenches, the howls of the enemy piercing the darkness day out and day in, no sunlight breaking through the darkened clouds above. The torturous screams of our fallen rising to the sky in a far stretching plead.
Bathed in dirt and blood we fought on, cutting into the festering frames of the enemy. I can still remember the stench which rode low over the battlefield, creeping over the thousands which littered the ground in morbid heaps.
As fear got the better of me, Said was always there to pick me up. As was I when emotion got the better of him.
We where born and bred for war, schooled in combat, baptized in the heat of battle. If you spend enough time in the trench you will know a descention, one which slowly consumes your humanity. You forget the taste of bread, the longing for home. You soon begin to realize the predicament your in.
You died the moment you enlisted, now all that remains is battle. All that remains is death, that of the enemy. And eventually, your own.
Fury guided my hand in my wavering gait upward in the hierarchy in the army. Like a monster I would charge the enemy, taking no prisoners. Dealing no mercy upon their souls. I came to find that when you do battle with beasts you will slowly become the very thing you live to destroy.
The same fury foolishly possessed me to defy clearly stated orders. Me and my brother where to mark what was to be an encampment in the festering depth of Tirisfal. I lead our unit deep into the murky woods, and without warning we where charged.
I can still remember Said go down, and arrow plunging into his chest. Digging deep, drawing blood. As I gazed I could see the eyes of my brother slowly roll back into his skull, slumping onto the ground.
I could only hear my heart pound.
My brother laying in my arms.
Said, why you. Why not me?
I felt fury wash over me, nestling deep within my mind. As I rose nothing mattered, nothing existed but the need.. The urge, a compulsion bent on death and revenge.
I lead the remaining unit into the jaws of the enemy, and there was only death and screams echoing throughout the rot. They all died that day, and their blood is on my hands. I was discharged, dishonorably so.
Stripped of my identity as a soldier, expected to return to a normal life.
If I only had died beside you my brother, if only you had not fallen.
I fled the plague and the battle, returning to Azeroth. Fifteen years has passed since last time I faced our father, since I had held our mother.
I couldn't face them.
The shame was too great my brother, you must understand. I have nothing left except a strong arm and the guilt of my deeds. I have to fight again, only in battle may I redeem my folly.
Only in death can I make things right.
ChapterⅠ: To Rise above
After being dishonorably discharged from the army Saif grew to be only a hollow shell of his past self. The clash of steel and mighty roars of battle would soon to fade, leaving him bitter and unfulfilled. Solemnly aging as his mistakes tormented him. Not only his mind grew frail as years passed, but the skills he had honed in the army as well. The image of the unwavering warrior he had once been reduced to nothing but a distant memory.
In his depression Saif grew self destructive and increasingly bitter. No longer tending to his health as one should. He would spend his days in sorrow filled contemplation, tormented by the guilt of his deeds. Searching for soothing in his time of need, mostly in the form of strong beverage.
The more he drank, the more he began to dispute the society. Alcohol his unfailing remedy, as if searching for the solution to his misery in the bottom of the tall mugs once having emptied them.
one day he found himself in an argument with a young man who insisted the he owed him money, for reasons to Saif unknown. As the verbal exchange escalated the two of them where approached by an arena organizer. He persuaded them to settle their differences on the blood stained sands of Gurubashi arena, not only for a fee. But the chance to humiliate the other in front of a crowd.
Saif was in terrible shape and had not wielded a sword for a long time, the young man who was to be his adversary seemingly more prepared and heavily favored to win the bout. In his mind, this was to be his last stand.
Yet as Saif found himself standing a few feet away from his opponent clad in borrowed armor and donning a borrowed sword the roars and chants of the crowd invigorated him. A powerful rush of adrenaline infusing his body, a sensation he had not felt for several years. The battle was a harsh and grueling one, both relentless in their attacks. As the dust settled however, Saif remained standing over the limp body of his opponent. Experience having beaten youth.
The surge of adrenaline wrecked his aged frame as he took giant breaths to ease the fire burning in his chest. He raised his arms to the crowd and took in their chants, letting them empower him and rid his mind of bitter thoughts. For the first time in years Saif felt a burning will to live, a fierce desire to fight. His love of battle had been rekindled.
On that day Saif rose above the bitter husk he had descended to, embracing the turmoil of hardening his body and honing his skills. With but one desire, to hear to roars of the crowds once again. To raise his fist in victory as they chanted his name.
Saif would come to have four fights after his first, all gruesome and demanding. Yet, having returned to the discipline and training which he had used himself of in the army he always seemed to manage to find a way to win. The organizers where happy with his showmanship and signed him for bouts both in Gurubashi and Ratchet arena. To Saif there was nothing more intoxicating than the vicious roar of the crowd, the sound of steel burrowing into flesh and the violent dance which was battle.
The sixth fight of his career was unexpectedly to be the hardest one in years. Saif had began to wander astray from the life style which came with being a fighter, the guilt of his past deeds reminding themselves as he laid himself to sleep at night. He began drinking again, abusing his body and growing increasingly self-destructive.
He took a fight with a gnome who in his mind had no chance of defeating him given his small stature, regretfully he was about to find out otherwise. The fight took place in Ratchet arena, and it one of the bloodiest to grace Its malevolent spectators in a long time.
The gnome wielded a terrifying blade, It's edge vibrating from a compact engine attached to its hilt. Saif was seriously wounded during the bout, yet even when his own blood colored the sands below red he managed to make the gnome yield.
Saif was now 6-0, yet the cost of his sixth bout would grow to be much greater than what he was being paid. He was rushed to the nearby infirmary, his body in a horrid state. The last thing he heard before his eyes rolled back into his skull was the chants of the crowd, and as he drifted of that very sound infused his mind. He would do anything to hear them chant his name again, if only for a moment.
Rising above the predicament he found himself in would be a gruesome experience. The state of his body would not allow him to fight nor train. Saif pondered over what lied ahead for him and how he could achieve it. He realized that if he was to fight again he would have to find himself a trainer, he would have to dedicate his life to the art of combat. Inspired he pushed through the road to recovery, longing to hear the roar of the crowd once again.
Living only to regain his past glory as a soldier, and in his mind to justify his mistakes through battle.